TomMike (kingmike1224) wrote,
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Writer's Block: Looking Back

LiveJournal is turning 10 and we're feeling nostalgic. What was your first LJ post about?


my first entry


Well I decided to sit down and write my first real journal entry. Where to begin with this entry??? Hmmm...Well how about I start with how much I hate my life. 2 of my closest friends and I are fighting right now because one of them is a bitch, and the other is just rude. Although the rude friend claims to be neutral, it can be obviously seen that she is not. Well this wouldn't be soo much of a fucking problem but one of my friends went behind my back and is telling the bitch everything I have been saying..which is making it worse. I feel that all of my friends have turned their backs on me...and boy do i mean all...I hvae only like 4 people i talk to now because of this whole situation. I just can't seem to trust anybody anymore...I even had to change my AIM name because of it. It agrivates me to have to go to such lengthsjust to try to lead a normal life..and this is just all online...I feel that my friends online (with exceptions of a couple) hate me.

On top of this whole thing, i have been depressed about school and from my real "friends" are giving me the cold shoulder to boot. I mean almost everyone knows that is why I am planning on transferring to Stony Brook next semester (if i get in).

I mean seriously...I have to be the only 20 yr old who has a life like mine...never had a girlfriend...basically all my friends hate me...and suffering from depression...ooo fun life. All of this has me thinking terrible thoughts to myself that i just don't wanna think about...you know the standard...should i just stay offline for a couple of weeks...suck it up and apologize for their wrong doing...feelings of worthlessness....suicide...etc etc.

Anyway...this whole thing gets worse day by day...I guess that is enough for now...I'll try and write in here tomorrow!!
Tags: first post, lj birthday, reminiscing, writer's block
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