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im sorry

sorry i havent really been posting but given the circumstances of the last post im sure you can understand.

Saturday and Sunday have been very long days of the wakes...seeing the various people weve known through our lives was quite a shock. The overabundance of flowers and cards makes me feel like Mom was special to just about every single person she ever met. Whether its friends, co-workers or her clients (H&R calls their customers that) we have had tons of people. That doesnt even include anyone elses friends and co-workers.

Tomorrow will be the hardest thing i will ever have to do, i have to say goodbye to Mom, and bury her. I already know i will just be destroyed by it. She not only was my mother, but my best friend, and i am going to miss her so much. I know shes watching over me, but i wanna be selfish and say i really wish she was here.
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yep_i_am_dennis February 1st, 2010
*big big hugs*

brilliantcat February 1st, 2010
*hughughug* I was 25 when my mom passed away and I still miss her all the time. It's not selfish at all, she was and always will be a huge part of your life.

leenyland February 1st, 2010
*hugs* I'm glad you got to see how loved she was! I don't know what I would do if I was in your shoes.

la_bellavita February 1st, 2010
i'll be thinking and praying for you and your family hon don't worry about posting here. just know we are here for you.

its_davy_baby February 1st, 2010
My prayers are with you and your family *Big Hugs*

feenie February 1st, 2010
You are NOT being selfish; you are being a son who misses his mom. Nothing wrong with that at all.

In fact, you did the biggest thing I have ever seen you do: You said at the hospital you didn't want her to go but if she's in pain, let her go. *hugs* THAT is being a grownup.

Oh yes it was obvious that Mommy loved you boyo! Yelled at you in the car but gave you a kiss when you dropped her off. Not to mention all the smiles she gave your way when you didn't see them; when working at her store she would giggle at you and just smile.

Love you she did. And always will.

la_bellavita February 1st, 2010
i'll be thinking and praying for you and your family hon don't worry about posting here. just know we are here for you.

sinthe February 2nd, 2010
What sorry? Anyone who doesn't understand has an empty space where their heart should be. You'll be in my thoughts and prayers.

so_goshable February 2nd, 2010
It's natural to miss someone you loved so much, especially someone this close. *hugs*

sparklediamant February 3rd, 2010
Don't you worry about updating here - everyone knows what you're dealing with and understands! I hope that yesterday went ok - I'm sure it was so difficult, but you know your mom is looking down on your with so much love. It's not selfish to wish she was here! *hugs*

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